Our new addition

Caleb and I bought a new car this week. Well, new to us. It was a very tough decision because we had to clean out our savings to do it. In the end we chose to do it because our VW Golf was waging war on us. It has been acting up for a while now, but then on Saturday the AC went out and on Monday it started overheating. Since it was going to cost a ton to get the AC fixed we ended up spending the money on a newer car...hoping it will be more reliable.

To tell you the truth I can't say I was happy about either choice. Keeping the VW one more day without AC and knowing that I needed it for class and work wasn't a great option, but spending almost everything you have on an investment that will depreciate the moment you drive it off the lot isn't too great either. I feel very exposed financially right now. It's a scary thought knowing you don't have anything to fall back on if something happens. Not that we had a lot saved up anyway, but still...even a little was a comfort.

I am just having to trust that God lead us to make the right decision as well as wonder if we'll ever have a good savings, a house and real financial security.

Inadequate

Sometimes I feel so inadequate as a mom. I can't explain why, Nathan is growing happy and healthy but I just have this deep feeling sometimes that I can't do this, that I'm not good enough. I assume this is just human nature? It's so strange.


I feel like I will inevitably fail him as a mom. Any other mom's feel this way sometimes?

Water Troubles

So we got home on Tuesday to find our whole building had the water shut off. Apparently it has been off since Saturday due to a sewage line break that they're still trying to fix.

Finally, today they're going to put us in a hotel. That's all well and good I guess, it's just so frustrating!

I am alive...really I am.

This won't be an incredibly long post because I'd like to add a lot of pictures from our trip for you as well. If you're on facebook they can already be seen there, but I thought I'd post some here too.

We've been gone for about two weeks now, we got to come down to Oklahoma to spend time with both sides of the family. My family always goes to Lake Tenkiller in the summer, ever since my dad was a kid so it's tradition and I've personally only missed out on it twice. Once due to lack of funds and then because I was 35 weeks pregnant.

This year it was wonderful to get to go and take Nathan. I loved getting to take him to the lake and I know he'll enjoy it more and more as he gets older.

After the lake we headed back to Caleb's parents for a few more days before heading home. We actually stopped in Branson with them for a day and a half and now are getting ready to head back to Chicago. I'm glad to get back so I can stop living out of a suit case but otherwise, I wish we didn't have to head back yet.

Alright, I said pictures. Here are a few:

My sweet boy!

Proof that Oklahoma is BEAUTIFUL!

With my brother & cousin

With Grandma Cathy

Hi Momma!

Hanging w/ Uncle Jon

The French Family's traditional "driving the boat" picture

With Grandpa Scott

Celebrating his 1st birthday a little early w/ family

With Grandma & Grandpa

The "old" folks ;0)

With Great Grandpa Neighbors

With Grandma Belinda